Rindu ;(

Assalamualaikum wbt.

It has been almost 2 years.
but every single day I've been missing you.

I miss your voice
I miss your playful jokes
I miss seeing you 'layan' every single kids you met
I miss seeing your kindness to others. You are the kindest person I've ever met in my whole life.
I miss hearing your nagging for me to read more
I miss seeing you playing with Ziyad, your famous line, "Mari kita mulakann". It made me smile every single time
I miss the time when we used to read the newspaper together
I miss the moment when you back us up whenever mom was angry with us
I miss the moment when you are teasing us
I miss the every single morning when you wake us up
I miss the moment when you taught me how to drive
I miss the moment when you came home with my favorite novels
I miss the moment when you came to see me at school whenever I said I miss home
I miss the moment when I had to wake you up every time you are 'watching' football
I miss the moment when we have to berebut the rights to use the computers
I miss the moment when you asked me to make you nescafe
I miss the moment when I was little

Most importantly, I miss YOU!
I really miss you ayah.

kakteh tak tahu nak buat apa kalau kakteh rindukan ayah.
Hanya doa yang jadi penghubung antara kita.
I really want to see you!

my heart breaks whenever i see your picture
my heart breaks whenever someone mentions you
I still cannot believe that you are gone
I still cannot believe that I will no longer be able to hold you, to kiss you and to hug you.
I really miss you.

Ayah, moga tenang di sana. InsyaAllah kita jumpa dekat syurga nanti. That's the only place where I can meet you. I really miss you. I really wanna hug you tightly.

I wished I was better daughter to you.
I am really sorry for all my wrongdoings.

Kakteh rindu ayah sangat sangat! I love you!
You are the greatest man I've ever known.

Al-Fatihah.