Tuesday, 26 December 2017

The Worst Department


i am too tired now.
this shitty department is extremely tiring, i am so exhausted.
i felt like quitting
i need a break.

i thought O&G is the worst, but now i am in a deparment that felt like hell

Friday, 22 September 2017

Third Poster

Assalamualaikum and hey all!
It's been a while peeps 🙋🏻

*krik krik*
Time flies so fast
Believe it or not, i am already in my third posting ; medical

I finished o&g last week, alhamdulillah i passed o&g with a little bit of luck and my specialist's kindness.
I was late in sending my logbook 😅 but she decided to give me more time (1 extra day if not she will extend me)
I really, really dont want to be extended in o&g.

Today is my fourth day in medical department, alhamdulillah i am lucky again as the MO and specialist in my current ward are so kind. So at least i had time to adjust myself in medical without feeling depressed sebab kena marah kau lembap haha

Each department is so different, in the management, environment and your job scope. so even if you are third poster, you need a little bit of time to adjust. But if u are an excellent ho, after one day you can work as fully functional houseman already. Unfortunately i am not that kind of excellent houseman. I need time to adjust myself, get used to the management and i am still teragak2 and blur in what to do in this new department.

So i am hugely grateful when my MO and specialist are so kind and treat housemans as their colleague.

Okay, that's all for now.

See u in another four month peeps haha that's when i finish this department (hopefully)
Doakan saya okayyy. 😘

Tuesday, 13 June 2017


Sleep is a luxury when you are a houseman.

I am still amazed on how i manage to survive with no sleep for more than 24 hours, when i used to be known as kaki tido during my high school time.

Currently so sleepy, i need my sleep!
But cannot, have to wait until 5 baru boleh keluar from clinic.
Nak balikk!

Okay this is just my random ranting, another 20 minutes before punch out.

Tomorrow have to come to work early morning 😑


Saturday, 6 May 2017

First Posting ; Orthopedics

Assalamualaikum and hello :)

Lamanya tak menulis dalam blog. I always wanna update and write something but, when you are a houseman sleep is far more important than anything else 😑

It has been five months since i am in this profession; there are lots of good and bad things happened within this five month.

I was extended for a month.
When i first knew that i was extended, i was really depressed.
I didn't tell my family, in fear of i will break down and make mom worry. Mom is a worry wart and she got hypertension, so i always tell her i am enjoying my work.
Until the end, i just kept all my depression inside, air mata setitik pun tak keluar.

But, i am lucky to have such a great friends and bosses around me.
My friends and colleagues kept telling me that i did a good job as a first poster, not to worry too much regarding my extension.
Some of my bosses (the MOs) able to detect my depressed mood during my extension period, and they kept giving me motivational support and i am really grateful for that.

I ve met a lot of wonderful people, and also a handful numbers of annoying ones 😭

Next week gonna be my last week in Ortho, altough i always feel this dept quite annoying with all the politics and drama, i do really enjoy my first posting in ortho. For sure, i ll miss this department when i enter the more stressful departments after this.

Till then peeps,
Wish me luck in my next dept.

*tak sabarnya nak EOP, nak jenjalan dan tidur puas puas yeayyyy!

Monday, 23 January 2017


Assalamualaikum wbt

being a houseman really drains your energy
i am trying really hard to love this profession

keep wondering why i wanted to be a doctor

it is really hard to renew your niat when you are subjected to being depressed every day

no single mistake is allowed, as it will cost the life of another