GBS

Assalamualaikum peeps

Long time no see. 

Recently i witness another baby passed away because of GBS Sepsis. It is so heartbreaking seeing the mother holding her lifeless baby. 

I stifled my cry when seeing the mom and dad broke down when my speacialist broke the bad news - there is nothing more that we can do to your baby, we have tried our best but he seems not responding to our treatment. 

GBS is so nasty, this is my second time seeing baby passed away within 24 hours of life because of GBS. I wish i can do more for the baby, but he deteriorates so fast. 

Bayangkan you are so excited carrying your baby for 9 months thinking there is nothing wrong only to loose them within hours after their birth. 

This is the hardest thing in this job, when you loose your patient and you felt hopeless, hoping you can do better for them and their families. But i had to remind myself again and again that it is all God’s plan, and i can only try my best.

But it is still hard when you have to put a front in front of parents and your colleague. 

There are a few deaths that i still remember after few years passed, in which sometimes i was wondering how are the parents now. I still remember the mothers’ hopeful face everytime when they asked their baby’s/child’s condition. It sucks when they kept on thanking me for taking care of their child but i know deep down, their child is not gonna make it despite our best effort. 

:(